Don’t run like a girl – run like an animal

Run like a tiny mythological fairy with wings!

So more and more women have taken up running in recent years, which obviously I think is great, but along with it has come this proliferation of running shirts emblazoned with cutesy sayings like “Does this shirt make my butt look fast?” and women-only events like the Disney Princess Half-Marathon and the new Disney Tinkerbell Half-Marathon, all these things I end up feeling totally conflicted about.

On one hand, I love that there are all these shirts out there that create a definition of femininity that is competitive, athletic and hardcore.  And I also have really enjoyed the women-only races I’ve taken part in, because they have a tendency to bring out women who would otherwise be too intimidated to show up at a co-ed road race.  Plus, it can be very cool to see a sea of ponytails in pink streaming through the streets in the early-morning hours.

But sometimes I wonder if these things aren’t so much about creating a definition of femininity that is competitive, athletic and hardcore as they are about re-defining running as something that is non-threatening and ladylike.

I think about all of the ladies I see who show up to races in full faces of make-up, who wear perfectly matched running gear, who slow down and pose for running photos instead of blowing right past the photographers.  I think about the women I’ve seen who carry tissues so they can demurely get rid of saliva and blow their noses rather than spit or shoot a snot rocket.

And I wonder – how much of this is because the ladies want to do things this way, and how much of it is because they feel like they have to if they want to be appropriately ladylike?

I obviously cannot say, because I am not inside of their heads.  Plus, just because I see something one way does not mean everyone sees something that way. And finally, I am loathe to engage in any sort of girl-hate, and to especially be one of those people who scoff at all things girly and feminine.  That’s not just my style.  People are free to express themselves however they choose, and they don’t have to have my approval before doing so.

But a fully made-up face?  For a half-marathon?  When it’s just going to slide off your face?  Why?

The traditional trappings of femininity certainly serve their purposes.  They can be fun, they can be alluring, they can be sexually appealing, they can ease one’s way socially, they can just be pretty.  I know I indulge in my share of them, and I definitely like the way they make me feel.

But sometimes it all gets in the way.  It can make you overly self-conscious.  It takes time, and it takes energy.  It can limit your options for physical activity.  You might find yourself pulling back a bit, lest you appear to be less than perfectly feminine.

I’ve noticed in my own life that the less self-conscious I am about the way others see me, the more I lose myself in the sheer physicality of the moment, the better I am at my chosen sport.  I’m not all caught up in what others think when they look at me, in whether I’m being too gross by spitting when I run or if I’m sweating too much to be attractive.   It’s just me and my body, doing something that makes me feel alive and good.

(Come to think of it, I see a lot of parallels here between sex and sport.  Lots of women have said that feeling self-conscious about their appearance keeps them from enjoying sex.  I don’t think it’s all that different when it comes to sport.)

When I’m operating at a level of peak performance, it’s like I cease to be a woman anymore.  In fact, it’s almost like I am no longer human.  I am no longer “Caitlin” and all of the various facets that comprise my identity, like ‘woman’ and ‘white’ and ‘American’ and ‘educated’ and ‘writer’ and ‘nerd.’

Instead, I become sinew and muscle and bone and blood and sweat and saliva and iron-clad will.   I become an animal.  And I like it that way.

So next time someone says to me, “You run like a girl,” I’ll just tell them, “No, I run like an animal.”

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4 responses to “Don’t run like a girl – run like an animal

  1. Being a guy, I’m probably not the target audience for this post, but the title intrigued me. I like your analysis and introspection on the topic because yes, there’s definitely a strange combination at work. On the one hand, races like the Disney Princess Half Marathon do encourage women to get out and run in what one might call a more welcoming, less threatening environment, but at the expense of dolling up what is essentially a very base mechanical drive. I like how you treat it.

    • Hey, thanks for the comment! I totally hear you on the way the two ideas seem to work at odds with one another. I am a fan of demystifying things and making them accessible to people who are otherwise intimidated, but I worry that the entire point of what we are supposed to be doing gets lost in the process.

      And “base mechanical drive” – that is exactly it. When I run I feel like I’m doing something I was meant to do. I don’t usually feel that way when wearing high heels. :)

  2. This article really struck a cord with me. I agree with all your initial points (such a conundrum between empowering women to run and yet not turning everything into a princess routine) and really enjoy your writing. But your last few paragraphs, the description of losing yourself in the running… you’ve just perfectly described what I’ve tried so hard to explain to others. (It’s a difficult concept to convey, so I just tell them “It makes me feel good.”) But really, running makes me feel like an animal. Not so much wild & crazy, but more in a not thinking, not planning, not wondering what’s next, not worrying about if I have the appropriate ingredients for tonight’s dinner. You think animals think about that shit? No, they are acting instinctively. They don’t care what they look like or who is watching.

    Your parallel to sex is also astounding. It took me a decade to not care what I looked like or how I sounded during sex, and that’s made all the difference. Another example of how allowing the primal side of your mind to dominate can make the activity more pleasurable.

    Thank you for a great article!

    • Thanks for the comment, Tracy! Yeah, it’s kind of hard to say to someone “I like running because it makes me feel like an animal” without conveying this image of you growling and hunched over a pile of raw meat in the African veldt, but that’s really how I feel. Like you said, all of the garbage and stress of daily living falls away and it’s just us, on the road, with our shoes and the world around us. I’m glad to know you feel that way too! It’s the best!

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